Happy new year to you all!

Hahaha ok I've been busy like super super busy these past few days and I just got home so I'll make it short.

(;

Just wishing you all a very blessed new year! Spend it all with swag(:

Its awesome to see "first Jan"

I kinda have to bathe nowwww.


Will blog later!

Cramps ):

I'm in school now and I don't have anything to do so yep. Blogging.

Haven't been blogging because I have been having lots and lots of dance practices. Once the Christmas season was over on like, the 27th, I have had a lot of practices.

And I ache everywhere. My butt and even my big toe.

And physical training today was horrible.

First we did 30 push-ups. Where you go down on the ground and push yourself back up, then we did 30 sit-ups which sucked like hell. 30 sit-ups used to be easy but we had like 2 weeks of slack soooo... Yeah.

Anyway. The small fact (#13?) is: you can't fake happiness. You can fake not being sad but you cannot fake happiness.

I mean, even if you're upset and you do all sorts of stuff to make you feel happy, you won't feel happy and it will show. You can fake not being sad however, just don't cry and don't zone out.

Yup.

Gotta go! Byeee

Song recommendation :D

By the way, since it's the christmas season, you should listen to a song that promotes it! Well.. That's how I feel (:

http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=SG#/watch?v=o_fWwl5qQgI

:DDD it's stuck in my head.

Merry late Christmas!

Hi!

Haven't blogged in a while(: had to go for Christmas parties 3 nights in a row so like.. Yup, no time to blog! ):

I would love to bore you with how great the food was at the party and the people there, blah blah blah...

But no.

I'm not going to do that. I hope you had a splendid Christmas! And if you don't celebrate Christmas, I hope you had an eventful Christmas season regardless. :D

So.. In case you don't know, I'm from Singapore! And if you live in Europe, or America, or somewhere not near Southeast Asia, we're about.. An hour's drive away from Malaysia, and a 13 hour flight away from Europe. :D

And we are near the equator, so, summer all year round! Many of us don't get to celebrate a white Christmas! Isn't that sad? D:

Anyway, small fact of life #13? Lost track..

You can't undo what you've already done, but you can only change for the better.

Yeah. Corny or what.

But honestly. Life is a game of trial and error. Intelligent lucky ones get it right away.

But if you're a little, or very, slow like me, it takes a few hits.

/:

But the moment you stop trying to change for the better, your life is going to come to a standstill. What I mean by that is, your life will slow down into a repetitive cycle. Same sort of friends and the same sort of perspective and environment.. Yeah. "living in a rut" is an apt phrase.

Hmmm maybe I'll blog later. To make up for the drought. Well. Let's see my mood. :D

Merry merry Christmas!

And if you're not celebrating..

Uh, have a great day ahead! :D

Feeling not so good.

Everyone has a past.

Well I do anyway :D

Actually if you want to know the truth, I was a horrible person back in primary school.

You know those people who fake it hard all the way? Yours truly.

The people who are very nice to everyone and then turn on them pretty quick?

Hi.

It was miserable business.

You never have any real true friends in a world like that. They never last anyway. And if they do? It's only because someone is desperately pushing on the pedals.

So this year I actually tried something new.

Lol yes and ended up being fake.

So.. Anyone who isn't blatant and somewhat mean is fake.

Okay, logic flaw on my side probably because I don't really understand what people mean by fake. We all have different standards of fake. So.. Genuine to me may not be genuine to you.

Eeesh did you know that when I read something bad about me my face flushes and my brain kinda goes cloudy?

Hmmm. I get over things pretty easy (:

Anyway. The small fact is in there somewhere.

I miss Sarah Ang. ):

Apparently she has the same problems as me.

Damn our lives.

But when people say something bad about me I kinda reel because I know it's true! And I hadn't seen it from that perspective and I whooosh into a.. Epiphany kinda, without the relief.

Ohhhh well. I'm quite sorry about the whole situation. But I can't change it can I? I can only change myself.

Yup. Bai(:

There it goes.

Damn. Girls. Hmmm. What do I do now.

Heh giving up. Studying for school now screw the rest of it. (:



Did you know, that girls always have something bad to say about someone? (:

Ahhh well. It's more likely people remember what an ass you were in the past rather than what you actually did.

That's all I have to say.

My apologies. Regret.

Ooooooh I'm sorry it's so late I've been in Taiwan! And I'm in Hongkong now sooo yeah, no time to blog, a quickie tweet or fb update or two but not long enough for a good reflective post.

When you have so much to live for. What do you think about?

Personally, nothing much happens now. I'm just thinking abut random thoughts while wandering through Hongkong, siting on the tram to god knows where while snapping pictures. The good life. Peaceful.

Buying vintage necklaces, etc.

So I suddenly thought if something!

Small fact #11: even if someone lives with regrets, everyone dies with some.

Think about it. Maybe you don't regret leaving home in your lifetime, but on your deathbed, you can see that green door hinging open, your mother standing at the stove, pushing something around in a rusty metal pot, a strand of hair hanging down from a loose bun, tickling her face, pushing it away as she smiles warmly at you as she is about to beckon you in for lunch..

Do you miss her? Do you wish you hadn't left her? How is she now? Is she dead? Why didn't you go back? Why did you leave? What would have happened of you had stayed?

Regret.

Is a heavy word.

What do you regret?

Was it something you said?

Something you did? Regardless of your motive?

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.

I strive to make people think and reflect upon life in my blog posts.

In any case, I do wish you all a very merry Christmas holiday ahead!

Embrace yourself!

Small facts of life make life complete(:

Song that describes my mood

She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only 18,
she had some troubles with herself, He was always there to help her,
she always belonged to someone else,
I drove for miles and miles and wound out up at your door,
I fed you so many times but somehow I want more,
I don't mind spending everyday out in the corner in the pouring rain,
look for the girl with the broken smile and ask her if she'd like to stay a while,
and she will be loved, she will be loved, tap on my window knock on my door I wanna make you feel beautiful,
I know I tend to get so insecure, doesn't matter anymore,
Its not always and butterflies it's compromise,
it moves us along,
My heart is full and my door's always open you come anytime you want,
I don't mind spending everyday,
out on your corner in the pouring rain,
look for the girl with a broken smile and ask her if she wants to stay a while,
and she will be loved, and she will be loved,
and she will be loved,
and she will be loved,
I know where you hide ,
alone in your car,
Know all of the things that make you who you are,
I know that good bye, means nothing at all, comes back and makes me catch her every time she falls,
Yeahhh,
Tap on my window knock on my door,
I wanna make you feel beautiful,
I don't mind spending everyday,
out on your corner in the pouring rain,
look for the girl with the broken smile,
and ask her if she wanna stay a while,
cause she will be loved (please don't try so hard to say goodbye),
she will be loved (please don't try so hard to say goodbye),
she will be loved (please don't try do hard to say goodbye),
she will be loved (please don't try so hard to say goodbye),
please don't Try so hard to say goodbye.

Apologies.

Hi. Today fucking sucked. I cannot blog. No mood at all.

Reason being..

Family issues. I never thought I would have a broken family.

Yeah bye.

Dumped. And don't feel bad about it haha.

Hi guys! :D

I'm single again wheeeee.

Let's put straight. I got dumped. No biggie, really. I didn't really like him,
DOOMED FOR FAILURE RELATIONSHIP.

Moooo it's like 1:30 am over here.

Damn did you know my clothes all have holes in awkward places. FMl.

I have this habit where I bite my nails. Ewwww. I disgust myself.

Anyway. Down to the small fact.

Small fact of life #10: no one wants to die.

Really. Suicidal people do not want to die. They are just sick of life. They hate life. I do not think they embrace death. Nobody loves death. People may embrace death as an outcome, but not as an action. No one is going to smile and say, "I will die by my own hand.".
People may say, "When I die..."
Maybe, "I'm going to stop living."
Not, "I will die tomorrow."

There is regret. Somberness.
Things you wished you have done.

No one is going to run all the way to an edge and just jump. Like into a swimming pool. No. You stop, stand, and ponder.

Why push yourself?

My point is, don't commit suicide.

Wow I talk about that a lot huh.

I love drawing hair. Waviness and the way light plays on the strands, silhouette..

And no face. Face is overrated. I like to convey a feeling without putting a blatant emotion on the face. I think that's art. Allowing your viewer to figure out and really think. I think it's cool haha.

I think the picture's down there.

I'm done for tonight. (:

Embrace yourself!

Small facts of life make life complete (;

Art spam

Yeahhh I was playing with my photography app...

Letting go.

Hi there!

Oh my god I'm obsessed with Project Runway. It is soooooooo good! I mean I love watching fashion designers scuttle around and screech about how there's no more time to do their pieces.

Hahaha. My mum just keeps on talking about her unreasonable client. Screw you mom. Not literally. But seriously.

Anyway. Today's small fact of life!

Small fact of life #9: the way to let go, is to simply change your whole perspective of life.

Well I suppose by doing this it will just rephrase your whole perception of your problem. So, if you have a whole lot of issues, just for about, a few days? I want you to just try thinking about things from a completely opposite perspective.

Just give it a shot.

It worked for me.

Today I went out with Vera and we watched Breaking Dawn. God I'm so slow aren't I? And it wasn't bad. Kristen stewart looked ugly as hell in some scenes.

And so old! And there was this bit where it looked like they did stop motion animation and just filmed her getting make up put on, so she looked prettier as she turned into a vampire. Not so good...

She's really ugly without make up.

Haha, anyway, short post this time but I fulfilled my commitments! (:

Embrace yourself!

Small facts of life make life complete! (;

Emotional issues. Jumping off tall buildings.

Hi reader! :D

I'm kinda worried because I have to do 43 confessions on Facebook. Sighhhh.

Random fact: when I'm hyper I get horny.

Anyway. Let's go straight down to today's small fact(:

Small fact of life #7: emotional issues are a phase of life.

You know we have people committing suicide because they have emotional issues?

Let me give you another small fact.

Small fact if life #8: everyone thinks of jumping off buildings.

So I'm sure everyone at one pint in time will have thought of committing suicide.

You haven't? Try it now haha. It kinda makes my blood rush for a split second.

Close your eyes and imagine, you're standing at the edge of a ledge. There is nothing between you and the air in front of you, your feet, trembling slightly as you balance on the concrete edge. People buzz below you, do they know that you are contemplating your impending doom? The wind ruffles your hair, pushing you toward your death. The wind presses against your cheeks, your eyes narrow, and you shiver as you realize that one step determines your death. You step forward, you're in the air, falling, and the impact has crushed you, you..

Did you feel it?

It scares the hell out of me.

And anyway. I just wanted to say, I'd you have emotional issues, please, don't commit suicide, even if you tell the people around you that they couldn't have done anything to stop you, the reality of the situation is, they will feel like they could have saved you.

Let's face it, they could have. And that will just scar them for life. Do you want to do that to the people who love you? There will always be someone who loves you. Really. Maybe not now not today, but if you give up now, you will never find them.

Please, don't do it. You can't. Please.

Anyway, I really don't want to end this on a sad note, so happy first December! (((;

Embrace yourself!

Small facts of life male life complete! (;