Dearest me,

You are a jerk by many definitions. You don't love a guy but you tell him you do.

You give great advice, but you can't follow your own.

You are a jerk to others and yourself.

You probably don't give a shit about anyone on the outside, but when it comes to personal stuff you have a truckload of care and patience. You who cannot stitch or knit without screaming in frustration.

You get over things so easily! Why can't you just stay angry at an asshole for once? Like a normal person?!

You never get angry or frustrated. But you spew out at yourself. You take in everyone's shit and you take a bath I it. Maybe this is a form of self-inflicted pain. Screw it, it's my way of staying alive.

You don't study. You get good grades.

You're a fake. You know you are. You're a nice girl aren't you? But I know you, Naomi, you laugh at everyone under the blanket. You judge. You lable.

You're kinda like a slut. You arouse guys for the heck of it. You don't watch porn, but at the rate you're going you're probably going to be a part of one.

You don't really care about yourself do you?

Ever since you were a little girl, what was most important wasn't you was it? Always mummy and daddy. Always somebody else.

What did they say? "make daddy proud" "make god proud" never ever "make yourself feel proud"

Can anyone hear my plea for help help?